So life has been sorta weird lately with all the tragedy and crazy economic/political stuff around us. I am so assured that God is with us, even during the rough patches. He gives me a peace about trusting Him. He is bigger than our political leaders, our problems... He is greater than SIN and SATAN. How refreshing! That being said, we are human and some days are just plain hard. I hate thinking about losing someone in my life, like Kristie lost Scott. I can't even imagine. I have lots of fears, especially after becoming a parent... what parent doesn't. But I just keep coming back to the fact that this world is only a temporary home for Christians. I look forward to the day that I will be in Heaven and apart from my humanness.
Sullivan has been giving us a lot of trouble lately. I think the terrible twos/threes are in full swing. She is very testing on my patience. She refuses to do potty training, she fights us at every meal and at bedtime, she says "No" and "I don't like to!" all the time, and she is constantly whining and crying. It's like over night she developed this new attitude. So, we have been putting her in time out a lot, but I hate to focus on negative... so today is a new day. I took her to play with a friend and then to the park. She ate her lunch (with squash hidden in it, hee hee), and ate it all! I allow TV only if she is behaving. So, we are having a good day so far. It's just so hard when I am not home with her consistently. Everyone has different styles of taking care of kids, and I think Sullivan knows how to work us both (my mom and I). I am so grateful that I can take Sullivan to my mom's 3 days a week and not worry about other kids or illnesses or anything. But, I would much rather be home with her full-time. It's a tough one. BUT, Ryan has been sooo great lately about helping with house chores and juggling Sulli all the time. It makes our house run so much smoother. Life is good.
As for me, I have been on a mission to lose weight for a while now (since September when I weighed in at my heaviest at the Doctor's office). I have been counting calories and I just recently started jogging. Today (for the first time) I did a work out video with my friend Erin. That was SOOOO hard for me. It's much easier for me to jog 1 or 2 miles than do a 20 minute ab workout. Yikes. I feel really good and am fitting into smaller clothes, but I still have a bit more to lose. I do have a bit less energy on the days that I jog, which I think my body will eventually adjust to, but is hard to get used to. Also, being a vegetarian, it's hard to find the right meals that supply all the appropriate nutrients, etc. I would love ideas on healthy, protein rich meals with no MEAT in them. No FiSH, no chicken... no flesh of any kind. (It's a texture thing). I am finally in the "healthy" category for my body mass index (or whatever it's called). I really , truly just want to be healthy and happy. I want to live a long, healthy life, and all I have control over is what I put in my mouth and how I treat my body. So... as long as I can stick to this system, I think I can feel good about my health.